1st Key to Awakening – The Death of the Egos
“Become like melting snow; wash yourself of yourself. With love your inner voice will find a tongue growing like a silent white lily in the heart.” – Rumi
Many have seen a popular depiction of a knight slaying a dragon, or the archangel Michael slaying a demon, or the Hindu goddess Kali piercing demons, etc. It’s a popular theme that can be seen in many temples, churches, paintings, and so on. One of the most recurring depictions is of St. Georges killing a dragon, and rescuing a damsel that is always nearby the battle, trapped by the dragon. There is truth behind this mythological depiction. It represents the spiritual part of us (St. George) fighting our own inner darkness (the dragon), and when it overcomes it, another pure and spiritual aspect of us (damsel) is freed.
As mentioned in my previous post, The Spiritual Path to Awakening, there are 3 keys to awakening: death of the egos, alchemy/white tantra, and sacrifice for humanity.
Egos are subconscious energies that are part of the animal kingdom, and which are now “attached” to our psyche. These are the energies such as lust, pride, anger, gluttony, fear, anxiety, depression, jealousy, and many others.
What we are is consciousness, that which is aware and awake. Unfortunately, humans generally have only 3% of consciousness; the other 97% is trapped within the egos. This means that we have 3% of consciousness and 97% of egos. Due to this, we are often not aware of ourselves, nor the world around us. We spend a lot of time in daydreams, which are egos as well.
Egos manifest in the five inferior centers of the body: in the intellectual center, emotional center, motor center, instinct center, and sexual center. To learn more about how they manifest there, see my post called Self-Observation for Self-Knowledge:
They are compulsive energies that disguise themselves as us, and they go on getting what they want. When they manifest, we identify with them and we think that it’s really us who want to have this or that, but with self-observation we can see the emotion and/or compelling mental thoughts that are driving us to do something, like for example to buy something. Since our free consciousness is still so small, our will to make fully conscious choices is minimized, and thus we are mostly governed by subconscious thoughts and emotions.
Many are afraid to die to their egos because they think that there will be nothing left of themselves. That is because they identify themselves with the egos and do not understand that they are not their egos. The way to truly understand it is to practice awareness and self-observation. Then you will know who you are, and will see egos like clouds that come and go, that are impermanent and are always changing.
We are not our thoughts either. Most of our thoughts during the day come randomly and are pushed out by the subconsciousness. It happens that the egos in the intellectual center come into thoughts and are constantly manifesting as various images and thought forms. There are dozens of thousands of ego-initiated thoughts per day.
“I want to read a newspaper”, “No, I’m bored by this, I want to do something exciting today.” “But I fear that something will happen to me, I would rather go and watch TV.”, “Yes, TV will relax me, but I think I’m hungry.”, and so such drives, impulses, images, opinions, etc., repeat endlessly throughout the day, often contradicting each other and making our lives miserable.
The death of the egos technique is, together with alchemy, known in many ancient spiritual civilizations as a key to reach the Divine. It was taught by many spiritual beings, such as Buddha, Jesus, Krishna, Zoroaster, Lao Tzu, and many others. In ancient texts this was known as the inner death, the mystical death etc.
“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.” – Jesus, (from Matthew 26:41)
“Watch” is to self-observe and spot egos, and “pray” is applying the death to the egos that we have spoted. When we spot an ego manifesting in any of our five centers, we ask our Divine Mother (the female aspect of our own Being) to eliminate it (you can read more about higher aspects of ourselves in my previous post). For this to work you need to have understanding that you are not your egos and that you are that which is aware – that you are consciousness. You also need to have intention for the ego you spot to be gone.
Application of the first key is done in every moment of the day, because egos manifest constantly. When you spot an ego in any of the centers in the body, you mentally direct you petition to your Divine Mother: “Mother, disintegrate/kill it.” The more you do it, the faster you progress. When you apply the death to, for example, a random thought, that tiny ego is eliminated and the conditioned consciousness that was trapped in it goes back to your main consciousness. For a tiny details of egos it’s enough to say the petition just a few times, but for anything larger than that you have to apply the death continuously until you are clear of it.
If you do this properly and consistently, your consciousness will increase, bit by bit, percentage by percentage, and that will change your entire life. Your entire visual perception will increase, you will see the illusion of this dimension, you will see more depth when you watch into object (not just the mere image of it), you will start feeling love and compassion for everyone, the ability of astral projection and waking up in dreams will increase, you will have inner peace and silence, and much more.
This is the foundation of true spiritual progress. You cannot achieve true spirituality within if you don’t die to your animalistic ego energies – they are incompatible and of different substance then your soul and your Being. You have to choose either one or the other – you cannot have both. It’s not easy to wage this war against egos, but it’s the way out of this inner mess that everyone is in, and into the peace and love of the Spirit.
If you want to explore this exercise, it is advisable that you first learn how to be aware of external world and internal world. A good book to start with to get more understanding about the egos is Revolutionary Psychology by Samael Aun Weor.
HDP (last revised March 2020.)
Wow. So much important info here and so many great reminders. Exactly what I needed to read! I didn’t realize that the ego shows up as emotions, something important to contemplate. Thank you.
Jilllurie u r a damsel.In order to emancipate you i must kill the Dragon of negative emotions.
Glad it helped. Yes, ego uses our body through the five centers. Many are not aware that tension is also ego manifesting in the motor center. Generally, every sensation in the body is ego. I say generally because on rare occasions people can feel love and some higher things, but that is of completely different nature.
It’s dizzying how much our egos dominate our thoughts/feelings so much of the time! This 1st Key seems to cover terrority that other meditations or psychology by themselves miss: is it the element of prayer? It’s comforting to realise we can ask for help from Divine Mother with our self-examination every step of the way, big and little. By myself, I would not know where to start!
Hi there, yes it is a form of a prayer, or rather a petition to the part of our higher self to remove that which conditions and traps our essence. Yes, Divine Mother plays a big role in the work of the self-realization.